A New Beginning

Hello! It's been a very long time since I've posted on here, and I was off to such a good start! It's been a rough few months and I didn't really want to write about it until now.

If you haven't heard by now, I am no longer at Ball State. The depression came back, even though I was unaware because I was happy. It's odd how that works. I wasn't sad, lonely, or the usual emotions thought of when depression is brought up. In fact, I was happier than ever. I had a great group of friends, and I had started getting more involved with church, which led me to not only make some great new friends that way but also get closer to God. However, I was getting very tired and unmotivated to do anything as the semester kept going. I wasn't wanting to leave my room, not even to socialize or go to church.

I'm very sad to not be at school anymore but not as much as I thought I would be. Yeah, I miss my friends, the atmosphere, and the independence of living there. I miss church more than anything though.

All that being said, I'm still very happy. I'm getting to spend time with my family, who I missed a lot. I also have time to do stuff I enjoy, like reading, painting, and of course sleeping. I'm going to take this opportunity to enjoy life more, to care for the things I had been missing out on for so long. I still have dreams and goals. I want to continue my education. I want to become successful. Having this time off will help me figure out what exactly I want to do with my life though, I think.

 While having this time off, I have many plans. I have a list of things I want to do, it's combined with my New Year's resolutions, so I thought I'd share them here:
 1. Read at least 50 books this year.
 2. Keep in touch with friends.
 3. Talk with old friends more and keep those friendships going.
 4. Help paint the kitchen and fix up house.
 5. Go through all my stuff and organize it/get rid of a lot.
 6. Read the Bible.
 7. Continue feeling happy.
 8. Figure out what I want to do in life.
 9. Reapply for school.
 10. Enjoy life.

 I feel blessed to have this opportunity. Especially being able to be with my family. I think this year is going to be just fine. :)