Inhale Confidence, Exhale Doubt

Well, tomorrow is the day! Tomorrow my first online course through SNHU starts! It's all happened so fast and I'm incredibly lucky that everything has worked out as it has. Things don't normally work out so smoothly for me, so it's still hard to believe. I feel so blessed to have this opportunity at a second chance.

At the beginning of the year I started a journal titled "A Year Of Happiness". In it, I write everyday about something good or positive that happens. Honestly, I'm proud of myself for keeping up with it still! I have written an entry everyday since the first of January. Last night I had a sort of epiphany, or "aha moment" if you will. I wrote about my realization for today's entry and wanted to share a portion of it.

I was writing that I'm very confident about moving forward when it hit me. I'm confident about all this. The new school. Studying psychology. Generally speaking, I'm not a very confident person. I'm never really confident about what I do, and I certainly never felt confident with my other majors at Ball State. I never felt like this there, not with classes at least. It's just an incredible feeling. It may have taken me a few years but I'm so glad I figured it out. And as one of my best friend's mother recently told me "no, say WILL, not hope. 'I WILL do better.'", (after I kept answering "I hope" when asked if things were going to work out and if I was going to get my degree), I say that to myself everyday.

 I WILL do this. I WILL get my degree. I WILL succeed!

I will forever be grateful for this little piece of incredible advice. It meant so much to me, even if it didn't seem like anything. I am so excited to begin this new journey. I'm confident for one of the first times in my life. I am happy. This is good, I know it.